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rain princess

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it was already midnight and just 1 of me walking home
my hands were shaking steady as i measured my steps out alone
i was thinking of the 2 of us a minute ago hand in hand
i was thinking of the blisters on my feet making it hard to stand
it was 3 nights ago when i think i fell for someone else
just when i thought that i had finally felt sure of myself
i follow the 4 seasons
winter, spring, summer,
and i fall into your lap laughing
my 5 senses were all attacking me
this month i bled for 6 days straight
like my body had just opened up its flood gate
i try to keep my weeks at nothing more than 7 days
regulate myself at a steady pace to beat this phase
…..
now there are 8 more stops to go on this subway
and yes, don't ask, it's been a rough day
and there are 9 pairs of eyes watching me
measure out the distance to the nearest exit i see
and they all look away when they hear my ten knuckles cracking
just preparing myself for the next inning

 

rain princess

she remembers clearly the day that she was crowned
by all the other fairies as the loveliest girls around
they said, 'this is perfect! this is who you will be.
you'll be the rain princess of all that you see.'

but there's something wrong with the rain princess
though thunder loves her and the lightning's her mistress
she's praying that someday she'll meet the sun
she is begging for mercy so the rain won't come

all her lovers think she's so grand when she
fills up the sky and reaches down her hands
and though she loves to quench their thirst
she wishes there was someone to take care of hers

but there's something wrong with the rain princess
though thunder loves her and the lightning's her mistress
she's praying that someday she'll meet the sun
she is begging for mercy so the rain won't come

well lightening pays attention but doesn't wait to listen
and thunder listens but can't pay attention
and all she wants is salt on skin
for the sky to open up and the light to pour in

but there's something wrong with the rain princess
though thunder loves her and the lightning's her mistress
she's praying that someday she'll meet the sun
she is begging for mercy so the rain won't come

she says, 'what i am is a little unpredictable
and where i am going i know may be difficult
but there is joy and it's seeping through the cracks
and there is laughter that can't be held back.'

but there's something wrong with the rain princess
though thunder loves her and the lightning's her mistress
she's praying that someday she'll meet the sun
she is begging for mercy so the rain won't come

 

dressed in blue

who's to say i'm sitting nicely with sanity
when sometimes i just really want to throw out reality
i try to learn as much as i can but i'm still left with who i am

every time fear comes here knocking
i have to let her in 'cause i don't want her to keep walking
i say come in. sit down. why are you here again?
she looks up and grins and says alright this time you win

now that Anger is dressed in blue and headed out
and i am still left with you and a little worn out
'cause Confidence is in yellow and hiding in the corner
Longing's in green and I am somewhere in between

i know my country's in quite a fix
he plays with the world like it's a giant game of pick-up-sticks
and someday we may all come crashing down
and then what will we see when we look around

now that Anger is dressed in blue and headed out
and i am still left with you and a little worn out
'cause Confidence is in yellow and hiding in the corner
Longing's in green and I am somewhere in between

it's hard to get anything done
it's hard to know where to start from
and i think we might have made a really good team
but you had all the friends that you needed

now that Anger is dressed in blue and headed out
and i am still left with you and a little worn out
'cause Confidence is in yellow and hiding in the corner
Longing's in green and I am somewhere in between

i've finally learned how to love who i want to
i've torn down the fences of the things people said i should do
'cause Truth came walking in and she was stunning
and she brought Laughter and he was just the right thing

now that Anger is dressed in blue and headed out
and i am still left with you and a little worn out
'cause Confidence is in yellow and hiding in the corner
Longing's in green and I am somewhere in between

now that Anger is dressed in blue
and i am still left with you
'cause Confidence is hidden in the corner
Longing's in green and I am in between

 

corner store

i guess i should have known when the closed the corner store
i guess i should have known then
that it trickles up somewhere and collects on the corporate floor

i guess i should have known that summer when i stood at the conveyor line
that sorting paper and plastic didn't necessarily mean you would use it a second time

i find that my heart has been burned i find
that a lot of what i learn is from wading through the craziness

i guess i should have known when i lost control of my dreams
and lost the sense of what they mean
i blamed it on the city and exclaimed the road is all i need

i guess i should have known when you reached out to grab my arm
you said 'baby, you know i just saved you from harm'

i find that my heart has been burned i find
that a lot of what i learn is from wading through the craziness

i guess i should have known when they started building with concrete
they said 'you know this will save you from the toxic waste leak'

i guess i should have known by the way i felt when you walked by
that it would not be easy knowing i would have to say goodbye

i find that my heart has been burned i find
that a lot of what i learn is from wading through the craziness

i find that my heart has been burned i find
that a lot of what i learn is from wading through the craziness

 

maria

her thoughts get lost somewhere above the gray and she is falling like the rain
falling like the rain
she's standing on her sidewalk soaked to the bone
she's wondering why she finds herself feeling so alone

maria doesn't want to play house anymore
but she's got two kids and a run-down truck
and her boyfriend's banging on the door
maria just wants to feel like a kid
but she sighs. says 'what's a few more bruises
it must be something that i did'

she wants to be a writer. wants to be alone
wants to be a mother. she wants a place to call her own
she knows that she should vacuum or air out the rug
but she's too tired from her 18 years and she's scared she'll come undone

maria doesn't want to play house anymore
but she's got two kids and a run-down truck
and her boyfriend's banging on the door
maria just wants to feel like a kid
but she sighs. says 'what's a few more bruises
it must be something that i did'

she dreams of the ocean and her bare feet buried in the sand
she loves his devotion but she knows he's like a hurricane
ravishing her land

maria doesn't want to play house anymore
but she's got two kids and a run-down truck
and her boyfriend's banging on the door
maria just wants to feel like a kid
but she sighs. says 'what's a few more bruises
it must be something that i did'
maria doesn't want to play house anymore
but she's got two kids and a run-down truck
and her boyfriend's banging on the door
maria just wants to feel like a kid
but she sighs. says 'what's a few more bruises
at least i have a place to live'

 

west wall

the bricks are crumbling on the west wall
the water has gotten in and it's making them fall
so i went to warn the neighbors about the coming doom
but they all stayed locked inside their crowded rooms

so i tried to figure out what i would do next
where i should go from here and what i could expect
this house is falling down and soon it will not hold me
'this city's wearing out', that's what somebody told me

i thought i would not survive the baking of the land
and when you dealt just right i threw down my hand
i think i said out loud 'what do you do to me?'
i was shocked to figure out just how well you knew me

today i realized the best that i've had
have always come to me with a predetermined end
the universe declared, 'my dear, you will not follow.
i'll give you the best of love, but not without the sorrow.'

so i tried to figure out what i would do next
where i should go from here and what i could expect
this house is falling down and soon it will not hold me
'this city's wearing out', that's what somebody told me

the bricks are crumbling on the west wall
the water has gotten in and it's making them fall
so i went to warn the neighbors about the coming doom
but they all stayed locked inside their crowded rooms

 

hard to believe

santa sits smoking on the corner of my street
and i never can tell what i'd say if we would meet
i've got a couple of questions that i'm dying to ask
but i have to make sure that the fantasy lasts

it's so hard to believe that i ever moved you
the more that i'm learning the less that i know
i confess my love was too reckless between us
we felt it, between us we know

i walk into the darkness i can feel the wind blow
and the moon is my lighthouse that watches me go
i've got a chest full of memories, some books and some photos
and a couple of stories forgot long ago

it's so hard to believe that i ever moved you
the more that i'm learning the less that i know
i confess my love was too reckless between us
we felt it, between us we know

now i'm spinning so fast i can hardly hold on
i am feeling so lovely till the moment you're gone
i've got a face full of laughter. i'm so glad that i'm here
and the minute i doubt that is the moment you're near

it's so hard to believe that i ever moved you
the more that i'm learning the less that i know
i confess my love was too reckless between us
we felt it, between us we know

santa sits smoking on the corner of my street
and i never can tell what i'd say if we would meet
i've got the heart of a skeptic and a mind full of wishes
and an ultimate fear of the truths that i could list

it's so hard to believe

 

how much i love you

i planted a seed to grow a vine
to help me remember a harder time
he backed up his truck to run over a sign
to show you how much he loved you

so i held on tightly to your hands
when i heard you were going away
it's a safety net that they call regret
just a price that i had to pay

i extended myself to make some friends
i looked so hard and got lost in the end
he took his truck and he drove away
to show you how much he loved you

so i held on tightly to your hands
when i heard you were going away
it's a safety net that they call regret
just a price that i had to pay

we work so hard to save our souls
while this earth is dying from our strangle hold
the scars on her land are like
the scars on my hands
when i noticed how much i loved you

so i held on tightly to your hands
when i heard you were going away
it's a safety net that they call regret
just a price that i had to pay

so i lit a candle to keep you safe
and i took a picture to remember your face
i committed myself to giving back
when i noticed how much i loved you

so i held on tightly to your hands
when i heard you were going away
it's a safety net that they call regret
just a price that i paid

i heard you were going away
so i held on tightly to you
it's a safety net they call regret
just the price that i had to pay

 

what little it gains

the day was darkness the night was burning
the dust filled the sky. water filled my eyes

we really are that precarious it's all gotten so serious
i went to look outside afraid of what i might find

i wanted to find you to make sure i could see your smile
cause every moment that passed felt like such a long while

people were calling to say 'you're safe! i am so glad.'
but what will happen if we destroy the world just trying to fix what makes us sad

people ask what about me what do i think we should do
they shout 'let's fight fire with fire just to prove we know who's who'

but i say haven't we seen enough pain? and haven't we see what little it gains?

i wanted to find you to make sure i could see your smile
cause every moment that passed felt like such a long while everyone was calling
everyone was calling just to say 'you're safe! i am so glad.'
but what will happen if we destroy the world just trying to fix what makes us sad

haven't we seen enough pain? haven't we seen what little it gains?

 

kaleidoscope

every time i see you again i think of what might be, what could've been
i find myself retracing the past. replacing the last
i feel like i'm in the same old skin
it's crawling
it's falling for you again

and if i don't feel fine it's alright
i'll make it
i'll break it
i'll love it
i'll hate it

money loves money and fame loves fame
we stumble around ignoring the pain
the sand looks pretty like the city

and if i've learned nothing else its that history repeats itself
and if i don't feel fine it's alright
i'll make it
i'll break it
i'll love it
i'll hate it

i'm caught in what could've been, what should've been, what might be
what i didn't want
what is like me
a kaleidoscope whirling before me
it's colors
it's changes
it's moving arrangements

and if i've learned nothing else its that history repeats itself
and if i don't feel fine it's alright
i'll make it
i'll break it
i'll love it
i'll hate it

 

gypsy

i am a picture of myself of everything i have done
i have been told i'm an old soul
cuz' that is what i have become

i am a gypsy i travel the world
i've been learning this dance since i was a little girl
i will wrap around you like the wind
and if you want me i'll be with you again
but all i need for you to do
is love me for being a gypsy

some days i can feel the hours crawling across my skin
like i am waiting for time to brush me off
but i am wanting to feel like myself again

i am a gypsy i travel the world
i've been learning this dance since i was a little girl
i will wrap around you like the wind
and if you want me i'll be with you again
but all i need for you to do
is love me for being a gypsy

i have had friends who were my lovers and lovers who were my friends
and i have felt certain and lost in a moment
but moments are hard to defend

i am a gypsy i travel the world
i've been learning this dance since i was a little girl
i will wrap around you like the wind
and if you want me i'll be with you again
but all i need for you to do
is love me for being a gypsy

i am a gypsy i travel the world
i've been learning this dance since i was a little girl
i will wrap around you like the wind
and if you want me i'll be with you again
but all i need for you to do
is love me for being a gypsy

 

what do you see

cinderella met this fella
she thought that he might do
until she saw that he had fallen in love with her shoes

she said, 'baby, look at me. what do you see?
it's hard to dance walking on glass. i had to ask, cuz if it was up to me
i'd choose bare feet.'

rapunzel, rapunzel how long does your hair grow?
cuz i got bored and shaved mine a year ago

she said, 'baby, look at me. what do you see?
i don't like this weight on my head.
and right now i'd rather look like you instead.'

what if goldilocks just wanted a little peace
wouldn't that be nice
and what if jill just needed to feel recognized

she said, 'baby, look at me. what do you see?
falling's not what i had in mind
no falling's not what i had in mind.'

and i may be cute, but i'm no damn beauty
and i'd rather be awake to feel the things you do to me
and though it is nothing like a fairy tale
the life i've found suits me just as well

 

i already know

when i heard you were singing a song about me
and we never have spoken a word
i caught your eye across the room and i understood
we'd shared angels in another world

and i already know that i love you
i already know that you care
so please tell me what's the point
of meeting you tonight
when we've already had our affair

i can see quite clearly how we would fall in love
and the good times that we might have had
i can see the lonely night where we would say goodbye
it's a vision that's so clear in my head

and i already know that i love you
i already know that you care
so please tell me what's the point
of meeting you tonight
when we've already had our affair

and i already know that i love you
i already know that you care
so please tell me what's the point
of meeting you tonight
when we've already had our affair

 

pirate song

i used to be a pirate
out on the raging sea
i used to search for treasure
to see what i could see
i'd watch the moon for direction
the stars led me to my home
i used to be sure of all of these things
'til i ended up alone
with moonlight sliding over my body
down over my hips
she'd slide down my legs
through my toes and away
the ocean was my foundation
i needed the burning sun
and your face in the stars telling me what i could become
the wind led me onward
the tide pulled me in
but i set my sail and floated back out again
with moonlight sliding over my body
down over my hips
she'd slide down my legs
through my toes and away
maybe someday i'll leave this ocean
as harsh as she is
and i'll find a dock and arrive on shore
with my salty kiss
and moonlight sliding over my body
down over my hips
she'd slide down my legs
through my toes and away