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long night in a movie theatre
placed upon the streets of reckoning
overcome by someone beckoning me to run
away from everything
where's the love that understands me
where are the hands of a trusting soul
i don't need you to reprimand me
i don't fit in your perfect mold
but we still walk the same
and you're love can't be blamed
it's hard enough to feel ashamed
when my whole life remains
where is the exit sign?
tell me am i out of line
to plead it's a waste of time?
just know that my heart and mind are fine
please just let me sit alone
please i'm just trying to make it home
we are not alike but we're all the same
and i know you are full of fright
and i don't blame you
when it's all fire and it's all fighting
and no one's truthful but no one's lying
nothing's sane but nothing's wrong
and no one's weak but no one's strong
you're beautiful but i can't listen
i'll just laugh so you think i understood
you're dutiful and i'm your mission
but all i hear is the sound of draining blood
ride the rocket to the war
then you can tell me you abhor it
we are not alike but we're all the same
and i know you are full of fright
and i don't blame you
when it's all fire and it's all fighting
and no one's truthful but no one's lying
nothing's sane but nothing's wrong
and no one's weak but no one's strong
i belong to the secret order
of a fairy tale life with a pretty border
and it's breaking my heart
and it's tearing my world apart
i had a dream last night that i was dying pint by pint
i tried to look for you but all you said was "that death was nice"
we can't be apart but we're not together
there's a piece of my heart that is bound and tethered
to a ship in this storm
unable to keep us warm
waiting and watching your face to see what light comes in
we're headed down that road and we are taking all our load along
i'm torn in half and i'm not sure why
i created this path and i started to lie
and now it's breaking my heart
and it's tearing my world apart
let's make it an evening just call me when your flight gets in
we'll call it a weekend and then i will be gone again
i will melt inside your arms
and i will forget about all the scars
i want to feel your breath upon my neck
not just your voice leaving me a message
i know you're calling but do you know that i'm falling
you're too much a part of me to make it east to set you free
but i want to fall in love with someone who can really be here
i belong to the secret order
of a fairy tale life with a pretty border
and it's breaking my heart
and it's tearing my world apart
thanks for the fast ride i'll take it all right in stride
i'll forgive you way before you know that anything is wrong
i'll sit out in the porch light pretending i'm a firefly
i'll sit an extra hour saying i won't wait too long
there's a light that i'll keep on all night
there's a song i'll sing that might sound alright
i dreamt i dreamt you before you were real
i dreamt i told you exactly how i feel
there's a fable to teach us if we're able
to find the lesson in the burning summer sun
i realize i'm always wanting to apologize for
everything that i have not done wrong
there's a fine line between humble and okay
and i have found it and i don't know what to say
i learned to give you everything i've got
but i can't pretend to be everything i'm not
i've had a hard time using both my heart and mind
too much feeling doesn't mean that i'm weak
but i don't show it. i hardly think i know it
my heart's as wise as my mind i believe
if i hurt, well, i will survive
and if i love too hard, i am still alive
i wonder if it's worth it and should i still try
cause i know there is a beauty in saying goodbye
i took up boating and now i am floating
down to your castle, but this will be my last call…
and every night i will try and be a firefly
though i don't like the thought of being in a jar
i will not hide i'll take it all right in stride
and don't forget it cause i am a flying star
don't think just because i am small
i don't have the power to light up a hall
i've got my wings and i've got my flight
i've got my legs and i have got my fight
thanks for the fast ride…
blessed are the humble blessed are the meek
and blessed are the hands that throttle the weak
though i am silent i still hear
you say the fall is the tyrant that put us all down here
i just want to tell you i've been watching your window
in the conference room on the 38th floor
the lights still on i can see your leather chair
so the meeting's still going far above this dirty air
we're lost in this moment and we're
losing ourselves at the hands of the tyrant
this time is well spent
but this time the cause is begging for movement
it's nice that you care
it's nice that you're here
but i need more than just promises
more than you just near
it's nice that your searching
for some deeper understanding
so why are you sitting and why am i standing
put me on some final committee
and we'll decide the proper way of living
while there's a woman who can't show us half of her essence
and a man is fading beneath the crescent moon
i'm afraid we're missing some vital sign
we've been looking towards the sky
but the smog's too thick and we cannot fly
we're lost in this moment and we're
losing ourselves at the hands of the tyrant
this time is well spent
but this time the cause is begging for movement
it's nice that you care
it's nice that you're here
but i need more than just promises
more than you just near
it's nice that your searching
for some deeper understanding
so why are you sitting and why am i standing
color me a house so that I can live in it
build me a horse so that I can fly away
take me to the ocean, cause I want to fly above it
cover me with blankets so I can end another day
jesse, please won't you teach me
to open my mouth when there is something I should say
jesse, your life is not easy
so please be wise when they come to carry you away
I just want to protect you so you aren't living with the monster
I know that you love him that's why you want to make that call
you are just a child, but you know more than I can fathom
you're living in the storm that threatens to overtake us all
jesse, please won't you teach me
to see the sun through the thickest clouds
jesse, your god will hear you
when you step up to that tree and you speak out loud
you said why are you so happy
but I really couldn't tell you
I said why are you so happy
"you came to spend another day"
life is not so simple but don't make it all that tragic
be open to the sun that's there to warm up your face
you're a tired little boy who desires nothing more
than to be fully free of this billowing storm
to see life take the forms of your castles of sand
before tide reaches out with her hands
you called me to tell me that nothing was wrong
then you hung up the phone and you cried until dawn
then you prayed that the sunlight would carry away
all the shadows that walk through your brain
we all go to the water to be washed from the pain
to be carried away
to see beauty and majesty
wrapped into one
let our bitter souls melt in the sun
it was late in the summer at the fading of day
when i waited 'til dawn to be carried away
by the time that i saw you my heart had been spent
and away to the harbor i went
we all go to the water to be washed from the pain
to be carried away
to see beauty and majesty
wrapped into one
let our bitter souls melt in the sun
there's a flower in the meadow that catches my eye
as i walk through the fields of barley and rye
it reminds me of holding you under the stars
in my little world wrapped in your arms
we all go to the water to be washed from the pain
to be carried away
to see beauty and majesty
wrapped into one
let our bitter souls melt in the sun…
i can see precious little sympathy
around the world in 40 days
how can you say that we're a waste of time
you blow my mind
how can you be so blind to think that we're along this time
is there something you refuse to see?
is it something below you that's masking you in disbelief?
rocking your bed a bit? well you had better get over it
'cause i am running to find you
and i want to remind you
that i have found what makes the whole world go 'round
and i have had a better view of the spirits that have slept with you
so don't think because you're scared
gives you a fine excuse
in fact you feel quite unprepared
if it helps i'll say i've been there too
and in fact i'm still as scared as you
but we'd just better get over it
'cause the world never waited
when i said 'give me one more day and i will solve everything.'
i know that we are constantly faced with this
i'm not ready to settle for just a kiss
the wars are raging the battle's obscured
the worlds are staging some miracle cure
well we'd just better get over it
'cause the world never waited
when i said 'give me one more day
and i will solve everything.'
i will reach out to you like a candle in the water
and i will shout for you
whether or not i ought to
all i hear is silence screaming in my ear
my prayers are getting jumbled and i'm trying not to stumble
too long we've been faceless
too long we've looked the other way
now it's time to turn around and there's nothing i can say
except
i will be there for you like a candle in the water
and i will share with you whether or not i ought to
i will fly like a flock of birds we can take the sky
i can feel what's right and i promise not to leave you
especially not tonight
i have searched my dreams
for a source of healing
and i might have found an answer
but i don't recall the meaning at all
but i know i will reach out to you like a candle in the water
and i will shout for you whether or not i ought to…
i'm in need of you to come by here
i need you to remind me i have to feel no fear
'cause the world isn't watching the world doesn't know
the world doesn't care if i come or go
i know you're important i know you're proud
we can hear each other when we can't speak outloud
the other night i had a brilliant idea
i'd write your name on the sidewalk and you'd stay and i'd walk
it's easier staying and fighting and trying
and eventually we'd find out we were flying
so thanks for trying and thanks for the flight
thanks for the air and the moon and the night
i wish i had a clearer voice
if i could say what i thought i could make some noise
you were talking and i was listening and i couldn't stop
watching your hair in the sunlight
then i was talking and you were listening and it felt like
i was falling from some great height
i'm in need of you to come by here
i need you to remind me i have to feel no fear
'cause the world isn't watching the world doesn't know
the world doesn't care if i come or go
you know you're important you know you're proud
we can hear each other when we can't speak out loud
i know i'm important i know you're proud
when we finally start talking well…
sometimes it's easier staying and fighting and trying
and eventually we'd find out we were flying
so thanks for trying and thanks for the flight
and thanks for the air and the moon and the night
then you were talking and i was listening and i couldn't stop watching
your hair in the sunlight
then i was talking and you were listening and i felt like i was falling…
i remember the day i met you. you didn't trust anyone you couldn't see
through. and you couldn't see through me
there was cause for concern, there was cause to discern
there was time to react, but not time to relax
and i lost all words when your thoughts consumed mine.
i crank you into my artist mind
we're connected, consumed in these troubled times
you said art is like eating or breathing or believing
or reaching out or falling down
your words knew me better than i knew myself
and word after word you reminded me well
that if this world is our oyster we've got to break this shell
you looked at me and asked if my name meant something
what was the one think i fight for
i looked but i found nothing. i told you that i'm still struggling to
do something meaningful
you said you'd never live up to yours
but i see an activist caught in an open door
there are people who love you and you know that i adore you
now it' s been more than a year since i've seen your face
and the future feels farther the faster i race
towards the goals that we set and the love that we gave
your words still know me better than i know myself
and your memory is walking beside me still
and i am sure that someday we will
we'll connect through our fight and connect through these lines
we will drink from each others artists' minds
there are spaces and places and i know i will find you…
you made a point of being right and i thought you were
you gave them all such a pretty sight, but all i caught was a blue
and the wind blows us away, but the earth spins us back again
i wanted to stay. i just wanted to be your friend
but all i saw was an angel standing there
i saw you had now fear and
i wanted to be you
i just wanted to see you clearly
i believe i'm stuck out in an open prairie miles from home
i believe in luck and in hoping and things that i'll never know
like that the wind blows us apart, but the earth spins us back again
i thought i lost my heart, but all that was just learning to defend it
and the sky was bigger than the fires
that brought the rain back in vibrant colors
i just wanted to be there
i just wanted you to care
the time away has taught some good things, things i needed to know
like it's not the pain of leaving or the excitement of wanting to go
that makes the wind blow us away, but the earth spins us back again
i hated to stay knowing there was a price to pay
but i am learning that i don't have to bring
everything along on my journey
you're with me every time i sing
now that you are light enough to carry
and the wind blows us away, but the earth spins us back again
i wanted to stay. i just wanted to be your friend
but all i saw was an angel standing there
i saw you had no fear and i
i wanted to be you
i just wanted to see you clearly
this city found me lying
this city found me dying
this city found me aching for change
there's a burning anger that i hear
we can start a fire and wipe out all fear
as long as you're heard
from here to the moon
we will wail like we can
and bring it back soon
and we can laugh outloud
release the pain of a thousand years
let our voices soar
to the ends of the earth and the universe
this city found me lying
this city found me dying
this city found me aching for change
we'll use our voices
as long as they're here
and we'll use our anger
til we've banished all fear
til we can laugh outloud
release the pain of a thousand years
let our voices soar
to the ends of the earth and the universe
we subdivide we compromise
we stay on designated sides
everything looks quite the same
we try to keep the same old names
the highway is curving around and the water is trying to drown us
there're some who try to save the forest
some just say there's heaven before us
we've created dangers, created strangers,
created reasons to enrage us
the highway is curving around and the water is trying to drown us
i promise i will never change but i will never stay the same
sometimes you might hear me calling, but sometimes i enjoy the falling
let's build another lane of blacktop
to take us faster to the bigtop
you tell me there's no need to worry
explain to me then what's the hurry
the water is curving around and the highway is trying to drown us
i call you cause i think i like you
and then i think that's probably not true
i'm sure she's clever and quite a beauty
and your eyes could always pass right through me
the water is curving around and the highway is trying to drown us
i wish i couldn't read your mind cause then i'd think that things were
fine
i'm sorry if i frightened you and now there's too much shit to try and
undo
we'll build more houses to house more buildings
then try to hide our deepest feelings
they're proud when they won't let you in
and then they'll tell you "it's a sin!"
the highway is curving around and the water is trying to
the water is curving around and the highway is trying to drown us
i promise i will never change but i can never stay the same
sometimes you might hear me calling, but sometimes i enjoy the falling
sometimes i'm a regular fool
sometimes i'm too tired to play by the rules
there's the ocean i love to long for
there's the mountains i want to run for
i'm tired of running from you
i'm sure that we can make do
i think i'm past the point when i just
lived and loved and thought i knew you
the sun is finally clearing the river runs once more
and i have made the hardest climb
but i think i've been here before
in fact i've been here several times
your strength is coming to me
your circle runs right through me
i know that the moon has blessed you
maybe someday i'll be there too
your strength is coming to me
your circle runs right through me
i know that the moon has blessed you
maybe someday she'll bless me too.